If folks could forget all the “Gone With The Wind Fabulous” and burning bridges with the other Real Housewives for just a  minute, ed try they’d see that glamour girl Kenya Moore is dealing with a lot of pain  of her own. On Sunday’s heated episode of RHOA, healing Kenya cried as she revealed that her mother got pregnant with  Kenya at 16 and decided to give her to Kenya’s grandmother to raise. Even until  today, view Kenya says her aunt has been her mother figure while her real mom treats  her like she’s invisible and was never even born.

In a heartbreaking blog after the  show, while discussing Kandi’s current issues with her mom Joyce being  disapproving of her relationship, she  wrote:

Ironically, I would rather have a mother that acts inappropriately to protect  me than not have a mother at all. My Aunt Lori is my mother’s sister and has  always been a mother figure to me. She is smart, driven, successful, and kind.  Since birth, my mother made the decision at age 16 to pretend she never had me.  She has never spoken to me. Even if present in the same room with other people  and family, she pretends that I simply don’t exist. She pretends I’m  invisible.

I fully understand that there has been a void in my life because of this,  which relates to my romantic relationships. I have never had any issues with falling in  love, dating, sustaining long-term relationships, or attracting great men in my  life, who have loved me unconditionally. Although I have had now seven proposals  of marriage, I have never accepted  one.

As my Aunt pointed out, I choose “unavailable men.” I’ve never wanted a married man or one that is in a relationship. I  acknowledge I have a pattern of falling for men who are emotionally unavailable,  physically unavailable in terms of distance, or categorically unavailable with  respect to time or where they are in life. For instance, some men know they are  not ready for marriage. Perhaps my pattern is that I unconsciously seek  rejection or failure with these men, which sadly mimics my mother’s  relationship.

Kenya says her story isn’t over and she’s working through her pain. She’s got  herself a new boo and is ready to start a  family, even if that means doing it without a man.

Although I have suffered a great deal of pain from my mother, my  understanding of my own pathology is a step toward healing. Everyone has a  story. Everyone has suffered loss, pain, or rejection on some level. My story of  my mother has been written and published for 42 years. My story of having a  family of my own is still being written. I have had a series of unfortunate  setbacks, but I have faith in knowing that God has a plan for me. My Aunt  believes that if a baby is what I want now, then I should focus on that. For me,  I will explore all my options as I have someone special in my life. I have  learned my lesson about pressuring a man for marriage. With that said, I will  continue to work on myself so that I can be the best woman, friend, companion,  and mother to my future children… God’s speed.

Wishing Kenya the best!